The Tourist.

《The Tourist》
30th of Dec,
I went to City square with my dear sis--Tourist Wu.
We did mention about watching movie at first,
But both of us didn't feel like watching movie when we got to there.
So, we just hanging around here and there,
And the first thing I bought was a hair clip.
Should I call it as a hair clip? ( hah, I don't know )
I wanna buy a MNG singlet, which is light pink in colour.
Unfortunately,it has been sold.

Then,we ran into Suyi and Cheryl them,they were going to watch The Tourist.
Gah.Then we went to the cinema and guess what?
We finally bought the tickets.
Hah.
It's nice.
I like the storyline.
So mysterious,
they twist the story.
Until the end of the movie, I still asked Tourist Wu:
“So,that guy is Alexander?”
"I think so,"
"Hah, what a fantastic movie!"

It's real.
You can't even think that the story will have that ending.
Awesome.
So, I've spent one of my holidays WISELY.
What about you?

Blessed Be, Susu Chow ❤

这种情况：：：：：

此刻的心情，是好得不得了。
觉得明天的太阳一定是高挂，
觉得大白天也会有七彩彩虹出现，
觉得柳橙汁是多么的可口，
的好。

青春无敌
这四个字很完美呐。
不经意的会笑；
很开心啦啦啦啦啦啦
尽力做到最好的感觉，
是最棒的。

Blessed Be, Susu Chow ❤

Packing.

Yea,This action (word) is what I gonna do.
PACKING.
Pack my Luggage.
I bought a new luggage, specifically for me, myself :)
It's a big,red and,of course,it must be SPORT.
That's my taste,one of :D
Cool,suits me.I know you're laughing now,or I guess.
But that's what I want, and what I feel to myself.

Today is not a good day,to me.
Something had happened.
And it turned into a curve,not a straight line,eventually.
It means it's not equally balanced.
It has to be.
Sure it has to be.
But it just,didn't deal with the way it used to be.
let it pass, it will :)

So, I'm missing my friends, these days.
But not the other way round.
Hah.This is the world, isn't it?
Okayokay,I'll stop babbling.

Eeeessshhhhh
I wanna watch The Vampire Diaries season 2 BADLY!!!!!
But I couldn't.
WTH.

*Oh wait, Should I give myself a nickname ( Christian name ),better to adapt myself in college's life,do you agree with it? silly me.


Blessed Be yea, Susu Chow.

Yummy Yummy :9

Hee Hee.
Do you know what day today is?
It's called “冬至”.
It's kinda warm, Don't you agree?
So,we're having celebrations!
Grans is coming to my house to show her fantastic skills in cooking,that's why I named this article as "YUMMY YUMMY". There'll be A LOT of delicious food today, Prawns, Fishes, Clams, Soup, Chicken, Meat, Haha, and of course!-------Vegetables!!! That's what I love the most among all of these.Heeheehee. And,A.G.A.I.N,we're having BBQ today too. ER-HEM, actually it's not me, it's my bro, with his friends, almost 15 people.OMG, they are making troubles actually,Ummmm, Sounds like I'm unfriendly,huh? Don't blame me, it's because, they ARE.Troublesome.It's good that my bro is going to Singapore next year, work's matters, hope he'll find a suitable and good job, and hope he can overcome all the circumstances, and be strong, and will not give up easily.It's his own life, own future, I can't do anything but encouragements.That's what I can do, and some comments too.Hmm....Wish can countdown for new year at Danga Bay with my friends, actually I wish to countdown during Christmas eve, but seems like no one can come out, I postponed it to new year eve. Pitiful.Haha.HEY MY FRIENDS, DON'T IGNORE THE COUNTDOWN, I MEAN IT!!! okayyyyyyy???????? Miss you lotssaaa, dear sis. Wanna hang out with you larrrrrr. And you too, Ms. Leen.So busy nowadays huh? BTBT,mmet me k? Lalala:D Grans started to cook already.So,I've things to do. Will upload some photos ( Tasty food ) later, come again!!!

Blessed Be, susu Chow ❤

Again.

So, this is the second time I watch Vampire Diaries (Season I). Hmm..you know? I just can't resist it. Maybe i was born to be a vamp-lover.hah. The second time I watch it,I realised something that,that we all are always blinded by. It's the greatest- love. Loves pull everything together. Doesn't it? So. Some of my friends have found their loves one.A congratulation to them,for their happiness. But watch out. Hah.I sound like i'm scaring you off. Don't. I'm just trying to balance myself,okay? It's 20th of Dec now. If I'm still a student,Mm..,i mean a student of SMK,then I'll have no worries.Just carry on,move on and over. but what if i'm nt? Yes.I am.not. So,there's a girl waiting for her coming college life. Just comment anything you want or even a '' what this creepy and freaking article is? ''. HAHAHA. I don't care.i'm texting this by phone. it's just a spread-it-out. owh, i think i really need more self-improvement exercises. I did some,in the afternoon,it surprised me. But what i mean is : DEEPER. Hello? It's Taylor i'm going,entering. Do need some exercise,especially English. Seriously. so,Blessed Be again? susu chow.

Guess WHAT?

Haha
Guess what?
I'd taken the first step,
That I was afraid of.
And now, I did it.
Good Job, Susu ❤
Although there was no any result.
Try to move on, and , Blessed Be ❤

不怀好意。

我心里，是不是有病啊？
看见你踏入我离开的地方，
心里有些不是滋味。
那个我熟悉的地方，
那个曾经在我心中占据那么多空间的地方，
那个我很喜欢，很爱的地方，
确实我自己把你牵引进去了。
淑琳的心，
反反复复；
就如沙漏般，
翻翻覆覆。


Blessed Be,Susu Chow ❤

Happinesssss

God, I'm DAMN happy now!!!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D
As what I've said in Facebook :
SPM BYEBYE
SSI BYEBYE
SMK BYEBYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm officially free from school now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I won't miss you, secondary school life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hah, went to REDBOX today!!!! :D
HAHAHA
Six of us are like crazy girl, really really kisiao !
Shouting all the time and challeging all those very difficult song!
Mariah Carey,
Celine Dion,
Leona Lewis,
tsk tsk tsk....
I can sing it!!!
I can hit the high notes!!!!
Hahaha, satisfied :D
Finally, susu chow can also sing those difficult song,
Sea gemuk, I can do it!
Thks to all my sister!
It's great to be with all of you!
We rockzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Blessed be, susu chow <3

Hooray for Tomorrow :D:D:D

Lalalalalala :D
I have one more subject to sit for.
Chinese!
BTBT my God, Please let me finish it peacefully and leave the school peacefully.Haha :D
230 Proverbs, sample essays, grammar tips and etc.These are what I'd read for 5 days!!!
Blessed Be Susu, just face the music tomorrow :)

Keep thinking these few days..
About SCHOLARSHIP.
Can I get it in the end?
Taylor's university's scholarship is DAMN DIFFICULT to get.
1 point for every A1 and 2 points for every A+.
Yet, I need to get 20 points to get RM 18,000,
Which means ALL A+ !!!
Next, 18-19 points to get RM 8,000,
Which means AT LEAST 8 A+,
16-17 points : RM 4,000
14-15 points : RM 3,000
12-13 points : RM 2,000
10-11 points : RM 1,000

Hello peeps,
Do you know what "A+" means?
Basically is 90 marks and above.
How can I get RM 18,000?
IMPOSSIBLE.
So, BTBT again my dear God.
All the best, Susu Chow!


BTW, I've registered and paid for SAM ( South Australia Matriculation ).
Kuala Lumpur's Life,
I'm coming <3

=.=
My Dad keep calling me " 吉隆坡妹" ( in Cantonese ) these few days.
Lalala :D

Redbox tomorrow,
KKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Beauty.

What's BEAUTY?
What does it mean?
Yep,
It means
Perfect.

Have just watched
2010 Astro Beauty Competition.
Hah, the 2nd runner-up comes from JB!
And I can tell you she's very beautiful!
To me, she's a beauty who has great confidence.
And, she looks like Cheryl ( Our SSI's Cheryl Cheng )!!!
Hah, maybe Cheryl can tke part in the competition too :D


So,
Yea, My life is full of colours now,
Hah,again,
I'm sitting in front of my dear Acer,
I miss you so much!!!!
Gahaahaha.
Spent almost 3/4 of the whole day : Television.
God, I'm now a friend of the Idiot Box.
Luckily I'm not an idiot :D
Singing, watching TV, Helping at shop, chatting with aunty and uncle, enjoying chinese tea, surfing internet, Facebook-ing, Blogging, arguing with dad and mum, are the activities now,
and, Didn't forget also: Reading!
Both Chinese and novels.
Yea, I've one more subject, two more papers to sit for.
CHINESE.
Wish me all the best!!!! :D:D:D



CY2140,
I'M COMING,
"MY" Aeroplane!!!!!





Blessed Be, Susu Chow <3
You will, and you can,
Do It!

Yes, I'm back....And Bye.

"I don't wanna talk about it"
This is the song I love so much,
especially this version,
sang by 明湘。
She was sobbing when she was singing this.
Poor girl, dumped by her boyfriend.


How about me?
Yes, still can't forget you.
You.
When can I just leave you aside?
Soon.
It will be soon.
Is it?
I like you.
really.
You brought happiness to me,
humour.
Thanks, very much.
Because of you,
I've grown up.
thanks :)


Hah. I haven't died.
After the long term battle with words.
Realised and understand a lot of things.
Selfishness.
So obvious in people around me.
So cruel.
Aren't I'm still a child?
hah.
This is what world is, isn't it?
So naggy, I shouldn't be like this.
Care about you yourself and don't say about others please, shuling!


I've done it.
Finally.
I saved about three hundred and fifty ringgit for...10 years I think?
hah.don't laugh.
It's what I left for myself after giving half the money I saved to my mum for insurance.
Yet, I still saved quite a large number for me, myself <3
However, I gave it to mum just now.
Felt relax.
I'm....just a child.


Wish to buy a lotsssaaa of novels for myself again.
I need it.
I need it very much.
I like story, my life is full of stories.
It's my way to carry on my life.
Flexible.
So flexible.
I love it.
So please.
Don't disturb my life, thanks :)

17th of January.
What does it symbolize?
A new life?
yes.
I guess it is.
Hope it is.
I'm going to Taylor's College at Subang Jaya.
Taking SAM( South Australian Matriculation)
All the best, shuling :)
Start life anew,
Is the best gift.
Don't you know?

Thanks everyone,
for appearing in my life.
When it's tie to say goodbye,
Don't miss it.
Bye.
My secondary schoolife.
I won't miss you.

Updatations

有人说我没有更新自己的近况，HERE I AM. CY2140 , FLIGHT NUMBER.BLESSED BE. 17 OF JAN.

蓦然回首

当我
突然地回头看
很可惜
都不一样了。

当我
反反复复的往后看
很可惜
陈旧了。

当我
情不自禁的往后走
自尊却告诉我

Be Strong,
Girl.

The End.

The End.
This time for real.
I should.
I should kick you out from my world.
You're useless to me.
What's the point for me to keep you in my heart?
So, bye.
I will try my best to forget all these.
Don't be a disturbance in my life.
I don't want it anymore.
No, anymore!

Meaning.less

I rejected all these.
Please don't think that I don't care
Don't think that it's meaningless to me.
I did care.
Yes, I did.

Should I just take SAM first?
I don't know.
I hate this type of me.
Choosy,
Can't decide things,
So not....yea.I don't know how to describe it.
It's all about myself,
Why I just can't be brave,
even a little?

I should make a decision.
Yea,
I will.
I should, I should, I should.
Stop all these.

Future...

好，就用华文。





这个星期
一直在反复的想，思考，斟酌，考虑。
到底，要不要去呢？要这么快就去吗？
地点：澳洲。

University of Tasmania.
不是最著名的，
但是该有的都有，
Quality也称不上“不好”。
Fees不高，不会涨价。
有奖学金。
我觉得不错，你呢？

妈妈说
如果要去澳洲读，
就直接过去就好。
不要这边一年，那边几年的，
总是会有差别（课程）。
她说直接去那里，适应那里的环境。
但是我会质疑自己，
一个人，真的可以吗？
我，会害怕吗？
未知数。
但是我可以很肯定地说：
我很想很想很想去那里读书。
离开家，离开这个这么温暖的家，
我可以坚持吗？

如果真的有过去，
就是2月多开课，
祝我好运吧！

RaRaRa :D

Yes,I got straight As for my SPM trial.
I know, many of you or many of them did get this result too, even better than mine.
But straight As with one A-, I appreciate this :)
I'll work harder and get straight As with no A- in my real SPM, bless me :)

Yea, I joined easynote again,means I worked together with them again in 绝对星光飙唱赛 at 19.09.10.
That's cool, That's great, That's fantastic.
LIVE BAND.
God, I wish to be standing there and pick up the mic and sing too :D
Do you realise how fantastic, how "shuang" it is?
In the middle of the stage, spot light on you, with a band behind you, and almost thousand? of audience.
God.
I want to be like that too !!!
But I'm a crew :(
Haha, but it's fun to be a crew too.
Learnt many things that are not in our books,
Experience.
Work together,
Have fun together,
Face problems together,
Chit-chatting together,
All together.
And make friends too :D
Thks again to my dearest teacher, Mr.Sea Took Kem.
I really really really appreciate it :)
Thks for asking me :" would you like to join us?"
Hah, I waited for this long long ago.
Hah, sooooo greedy.
Oops.
That's me:)

So, we're now "enjoying" at school.
Teachers are now giving us lotssss of exercises and then they will just sit in front,
guess what?
My Biology teacher put on his earphone and listening to the music? And facing his laptop after giving us a 50-questions-objective-paper.
Wow.
Interesting.

Going to the education fair on Wed, about universities in Australia,specifically.
And next Wed too, UK, USA, AUS and Our "peaceful" Malaysia :D
So my life is full of future hopes now.
Bless me again.
:)
PSYCHOLOGY AR PSYCHOLOGY,
DO YOU WELCOME ME? :S

Owh

Owh
Jealousy kills.

Owh
I'm not willing to believe.
But I'm forced to-

Owh
What I'd realised was
The people around you are not just what they seem like-

Owh
If You can't fulfil then just go away-

Owh
There's so many things-
So many things which WERE different
so many until I can't believe them.

Owh
I ain't the one you think of-

Owh
Please leave me alone.
I don't want you, anymore.
Let go of me-
And go straight on.
Since I'd realised who you are,
There's nothing we can discuss more-
So be brave,
just go
And go and go.

thanks and no thanks

Thanks
To a person
who wrote a discription about me


Charming and always
Humble, is an
Overcomer and a
Winner,
Sweet,
Honest, and
Understanding,
Loving,
Intelligent,
Never gives up, and definitely
Gorgeous.....

( Look at the initials :) )

Haha, Thks yea.
For the person who wrote this,
I appreciate it very much :)


And "No thanks"
To this Flu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gahhhhhhhh
Owh,
It's really sucks!
(sry for saying bad word)
But I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cannot sing loudly though during hols now :(



It really disappointed me.
At least a little bit,
The moment I open it,
The moment I look at it.
Felt disappointed of myself.
Haiz.

是你，又是你！！！！！！

又是你！
又是你又是你！！！！！
我满怀期待的等待明天的到来
我兴高采烈的盘算着明天的一切
因为你，
所有的梦都碎了。


我们从小一起长大
爸妈的爱我们拿得都均匀
也许我以前曾经有过爸妈偏心的念头
但是我现在不曾有过那种想法
因为我知道
爸爸妈妈对我都付出了比这个世界更大更大的爱
更多更多的关怀
更棒更棒的对待
但是呢?
为什么？
为什么你一次次的要破坏？
为什么？
你可以告诉我吗？
你心里不平衡吗？
你为什么那么不懂事？
你都18岁了，
还不会想吗？
还没有成熟一点吗？一点就好！
我只希望你成熟一点，一点点就好！！！！！

明天是我的生日，
你是妒忌吗？
妒忌我有一个有50多个朋友的派对，
妒忌我可以办这个派对吗？
是吗？
是的话就讲出来！
男人，做事光明磊落！
不喜欢就说不喜欢！
不用兜圈子！
妈妈每天被你念，夹在中间她很辛苦你知道吗？
你整天只懂得用你那个嘴巴来批评别人
你有想过你自己吗？
你有吗？！！！！
从小爸爸妈妈就很疼我们两个，
你为什么要整天把“偏心”放在嘴边？！
是不是就搬出来讲，
你不觉得累吗？
我听了都累！
耳朵累，头脑累，心，也很累。
你有顾忌到我们的感受吗？
有吗？
你自己说有吗？？？
喜欢就乱花钱！
花了就说你应该的！
我花钱你就看不爽！
你脑袋有问题啊？
跟你相处真的很累！
很累很累很累！！！！！
很烦啊！


你高兴了！
明天的生日对我来说又算什么了？
爸妈现在没说话，
整个家碎完了，
你高兴了对吗？
这就是你想要的吗？
眼睛已经没有泪了，
都干了
都很累了
我现在又算什么？
就这样吧，对吗？
明天就做一场戏，
就一场完美的戏，
戏做完了就回到现实，
是这样吗？
你希望的就是这样吗？
那很好，
正如你所愿。

想离开这个家，
自己去别的洲，甚至是别的国家，
就是不想看到你！
就是不想再跟你生活！
我们的家
原本是可以很美好，很美好的。
就是因为有你这个不成熟的人！
才会变成这样！
我常常在想
爸爸妈妈
是因为相爱
才在一起的。
但是多年后的今天，
他们的爱
好像少了好多好多。
妈妈很累，很辛苦。
爸爸也是。
离婚又不好，我不希望会是这样的结局。
但是又能怎么样呢？
为什么？
我会要面对这一切的一切？
命运，是吗？
是的。
这就是我的命。
我不舍得离开这个家，
没有什么原因，
就是因为我离不开爸爸妈妈，
但是我不会对你不舍，
一点都不会！
因为你是一个动不动就说死的人！
我看不起你！


犹豫了很久，
这样写出来，
到底对不对？
但是请原谅我，
我忍了很久了。
我如果不宣泄，
我怕我会崩溃。
我怕我会疯掉。
我要勇敢的面对。
这是我应该做的。
哥哥，醒一醒，好吗？

Yea.It's this feeling.Yes.

Glad.
All of us have finished our examinations.
And the most important part is: We have no any homework AT ALL!
God, Is it because our school teacher forgot to give?
Hah oopss, teachers you all did a big big big mistake!
XD

Another thing,
I can go back and join them (easynote friends),
organise competition,
no, it's like a concert C:
Yes, I like this, being together with those crazy happy people.
Fun.
And learn lotsss of things.
Thanks teacher, Sea Gemuk :D
I appreciate it.


Damn happy now.
No. Not happy.
It's a feeling,
Between happy and normal.
Just between the range.
It's this feeling I like the most.
The feeling I crazy for.
Yes,
It's this feeling.
Listening to the background music of my Blog,
And enjoying this feeling.
This is the BEST.
Do you know about this feeling?
Do you realise it?
Do you notice it?
Hah. Silly.


Yes.
I went to my favourite place just now.
Rose Garden.
It's my favourite.
It always will be.
It is a place full of memories,
A place which is one of the turning points of my life,
A place which mixed with happiness and sadness.
Yessssssss.
I like it.


Sometimes
When my mind is flickering
When my mind is hanging in the air
Like the air swimming
I think, I think carefully.
Yes,This is what life is.
I enjoy my life.
Very much.

湿的，簿。

前天晚上的心情，是到了谷底。
没有把时间安排好，
没有事先好好准备，
结果就落得这样的下场了。




一整天的烦躁，
加上妈妈在学校门口被邻校马来男学生推倒的事情，
心情真的很糟。
这两个礼拜，
对时间的流逝觉悟了。
时间，那毫不留情的时间，
是公正，却也是残酷。
我满满的厌恶自己，
感叹我做人怎么可以到这种程度。
17岁。
我又何尝有这个年龄该有的态度。
心机。
心，很可怕。


考倒了。
就这样倒下。
倒下后都应该站起来，
我固执的继续躺着。
执迷不悟，又是执迷不悟。


我最后哭了，在那天晚上。
那天晚上的晚上。
哭得好像很理所当然，
其实是那么的可耻。


我总是嘴上说得那么好听，
但是我却没有落实，
甚至连心，
都不曾与话交心。


站起来，再站起来，
好好面对自己的心，
洗净一番，
再重新来。

Trial.

Yes, Trial is around the corner.
So, Please don't be shocked if I don't update anything until 1st of Sep.
Bless me, Blessed Be.
I would have good results to show you :)

High, and then Low.

Sorry for letting you all read 2 articles on the same day.
Hah.
You know,
It's all about Feeling.





我和你
已经陷入了低潮
很好
正如我意。
Less and less topics in our conversation.
Great.
I appreciate it.
I'll get used to it.
Don't worry.




------------------------------------------------

University life?
College life?
Hah.
Blind spot appears.

Rajin :)

Yes, Rajin.





" Go? Don't go? Go? Don't go? "

Yea, This is my feeling.

I was confusing yesterday.About a YES or NO.
Please don't say that I'm always confident.
It hurts.






" I'm so---- glad to be here, thks for encouraging me. "
Yes.
I'd made my choice.Hah.
And then I enjoyed.
You will be happy,
IF AND ONLY IF YOU TRUST YOURSELF.
I've learned.





This is just simply an Add Maths workshop.
Whether I wanna join, or not.And finally I chose YES.
As a facilitator there to help those who attend the class.

My first experience to be a little teacher,
In academic.
Cert is given.
So please don't think that I'm so noble.
But yes,
I am noble in being a facilitator and enjoying the happiness.
But not in making decision.
Be careful.





Here's a pic :)

7月27的，偶遇。

最近店里常常有老外来光顾，
很不错呢 :)






就说说今天的一个小插曲吧：





话说本小姐今天抵着因为要考试然后要在店里温书的理由而做了第N次的逃学威龙。
说实在的，我们这一群成绩算不错的学生，又有多少个没有旷课初体验呢？
还是老样子，
在边看边读的情况下把报纸看读完后，
我抱了一堆书，
走进店里的后端，
打开桌子放好椅子就开始和几千几百万个各种各样的字坦然相对。
2点某某时分，我累得已经无法面对那一支支的蝌蚪字，
倒下就睡。
然而在我睡得正香时，
我感觉到有人在靠近我，在看着我睡觉。
原以为时隔壁的小不点又跑进来找我，
我用毫无防备，哦不，因该说是毫无预料到的眼神网上看。
天啊，
好美的一个外国小女孩啊！
她就这样冒冒然的走进来，
然后走到更里面去看东看西，
我问她
“What are you doing?"
"Just looking around."
"You-you better go to find your mum"
"no,I'm just looking around and my mum bring me here."
"Oh,owh-okay.Where do you come from?"
"Australia"
"Oh, I wish to further my study there!"
"That's not a best place."
"Why?"
"I don't know.I like here.But I'm going back soon"
"Owh... :("

"Joey, let's go!"

就这样，她离开了。
我很希望再遇到她，不管怎样。

我享受着，
我的生活。

Seems like I CAN'T really escape from this and these.

Yea,
It seems like I really can't get out of all of "these".


Do you know how much time I think of you?
Uncountable.
Hah.
Silly girl, I Am.
I admit that I'm somehow, liking you.
I'd not describe it as Loving.
I'm not dare to say that.
Two years and seven months and twenty one hours.
It's you who help me to get rid of him.
Thanks.
But you've shown too much.
You bring happiness.Definitely you brought.
To me.
Thanks again.

You left.
In the next seconds.
Without giving me second chance.
Yes, I regretted.
I-I seems like destroying.
Destroying your relationship.
So I keep myself away from you.
But it's you who distract me sometimes.
I can't suffer it.

You're stepping on the same floor,
You're watching at the same sky, stars and moon now,
Exactly the same as me.

Thanks and thanks again.
I will forget you,
If and only if you disappear.





* broken English used, and not a romantic story posted. Please don't hate me.

This is what LIFE is.

ECLIPSE.

Yea,
I watched it.
7.00PM, 08.07.10.
IT'S FABULOUS.

GOD!!! I love it so so so so so so so so so Much!!!!!
No, I would like to use Chinese.
=)

刚刚看完回来，
就迫不及待的上来“发泄”了。
我早已经预测到了，
这一集会是充满他们两个的爱，充满他们两个私人空间的一集。
果然没让我失望啊。
Rob很帅，Kristin也变得更美了。
我无法移开我的视线，
只是朝着荧幕用我的眼睛记载这一切的一切。
从Edward的求婚，到Bella的犹豫，然后Edward的下跪求婚，
然后Victoria的报复，Volturi的出现，最后回到他们两个。

等这一天好久了啊。
现在看完了却又有不舍。
哈，有人会像我这么疯狂吗？
只能说，是年少轻狂，特别是一名女生呐。
Jacob，真的是令人感到厌恶。
为什么明知自己不可能了还要做垂死的挣扎呢？
爱情就是这样吗？
哈，不晓得。

现在把Eclipse看了，
我知道我的心不满足。
哈哈，CD我来了。
stick to what you love.
这句话，
会害死人。

在看的时候我把全部的全部都忘了，
全情投入地看。
现在要我回想，我会跟你说我记不起了。
因为太享受，太注重。
我就是这么一个怪人，
很怪很怪的人。

加油，Eclipse!
加油，Breaking Dawn.
我很期待，你们的结婚典礼。

AZA.

SAD

BRAZIL LOST.

AM REALLY DAMN SAD.

NETHERLAND, FakeR!!!!!

=( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =(

Kaka, kambatech!!! :)

Memories.

Bad and Sweet.
There are two memories in this world.
And Yes,
I get both of them from you.
Sigh.
Why should I keep wondering?
Yes.
Then I should be called
A crazy girl.
A Super-crazy-silly-foolish Girl.
Whatever.
I don't care.
Am just worrying when can it be ended.

LIfe.

Thks for telling me,
What my life is.
Thks for telling me,
What my character is.
Thks for telling me,
Where my position is,
In your heart.

I know.

I do have feeling, sense.

I can feel it.

And yes,
This is just the same as the Form Four's matter.
And yes,
It breaks my heart again.
And yes,
It freak me out.
And yes,
I've realized.

Remorse.
For all these.
Not for the I-have-done thing,
It's complicated relationship.
Hah.
I should be alone after all.
I'll be happy to be alone.
I'm always feeling glad to be alone,
which means Freedom.
One's life
should be coloured,
with all sort of colours.
Off course,
I'll be delighted,
with you being at my side.

I know I shouldn't say Disappointed.
But it really hurts.
especially when it's from others,
But not me,
who discover this.

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Owh my sis.
I 'm really proud to be your sis.
We have no interaction sometimes.
Yet, our hearts are just like one.
Thks sis,
For listening to me.
You, You, are the only two.
I trust.
I say.
I cry.
I show.
I burst out.
Blessed Be.

Yes.

Yes.
As you see,
I love that gown,
Big, White and full of Lace's Wedding Gown.
It's really nice.
Like it<3

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Yes.
As you know,
I'm now enjoying my holiday.
It's a quite nice holiday to me,
I spent time in completing my homework, reading novels, watching drama, helping mum and dad at shop, chatting with family members, Singing all the time, Hang out once a while, Surfing Net, Wondering, Making dreams, Planning my life,my future, Getting informations from universities, organizing events, Improving relationships with friends, celebrating friend's birthday, buying needs, dinning with family, laughing all the time.

Yet,
I feel that
This holiday is not enough for me.
Hah.
Greedy.

Yea, My sleeping time is becoming lesser and lesser,
though it's now holidayIng...

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Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday
Hah,
Happy Birthday my beloved.
Wish you all the best.
Time flies.

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Yes.
As you don't know.
Hah.
I'd bought the Dvd of 《New Moon》
Fabulous.
I'm damn Happy =)
And YES again,
I bought the House Of Night series---------7th book which was 《Burned》
And I'm engulfing the book =))
Love you, P.C Cast and Kristin Cast.

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No.
As you don't no.
I'm jealous when I saw it.
I'm sad, depressed, and disappointed.
When I saw it.
Hah.
Don't I say I want and should and must put down?
Liar.

Blue.Deep.Sea

Yea,
Just like what I'd put on top of my blog.
Sea...
I wish to stand
In front of the blue clear sea,
Let the howling wind slap on my face,
Let my tears swip away,
Let my thoughts become null,
Let me enjoy the mesmerizing natural.
Yes.
I love the clear blue,
I love it , deeply.
I want
To dive in the sea....

HeavenING

God Blessed Me.
Yes, I'm now relaxing in front of my Cercer(Acer).
Fortunately,
I'm still alive.

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Hahaha
Biology today.
Damn.
It was DAMN hard!!!
Finally,
I ended up with "creating" Biology facts and theories MYSELF.
See.
So--------CREATIVE.
Especially during this so-important exam.
I had already created Malaysia History last year,
Now Biology,
What's coming next?
XD

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Battle of the Bands is coming!!!!!!!!!!
Excited.
=D=D=D
This is the first time we organize such a big competition at JOTIC
God hope it will be successful.
Yeahhhhhhhhhhhh

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Not everyone
Not everyone that I can trust.
Not everyone that I can hope.
Yea, Not everyone, please wake up Susususu

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Holidaysssss
Enjoyyyyyyyyyyyyyy =D=D=D

*call me if wanna hang out!!! Free all the time =) Hahaha XD

恩师---谢督钦师。

还有一个月，
又三天。

过了这段时间，我就会离开。
离开那个，陪我度过我的中学生涯的地方。
离开那个，一直以来毫不吝啬给我鼓励，给我批评，给我意见，叫我人生道理的
谢督钦老师。

说长不长，说短不短。
3年半。
我一直努力，加入这个天地。
老师给我的机会，
我一直都很感谢。
我了解，不是每一个人都有这个机会。
每一次爬上那一层层的楼梯，
我都会想今天老师又要给我们说什么故事。
我喜欢，听你说故事。
你说的故事，都很有意思。
我喜欢你每一次在结束上一堂课后，
打开那一扇门，
面对我们的是微笑。
你不把劳累表现给我们看，
你总是笑着对我们。

我永远都记得
在我十五岁生日那天，
我们几个一起出来庆祝。
那时候的你，
说了一句让我永远记住的话。
你说：“ 我们有我们的快乐。”
这句话，
在很多时候帮助了我，鼓励了我，让我从困境中解脱。

我记得，我感激。
在我十六岁生日的那天，
你打了一通电话来，
说了一句生日快乐，
就把电话传啊传啊，传给了不知道多少个人，让我收到了许许多多的祝福。
我从来都没有过，
那些惊喜。
谢谢你，老师。

我觉得，老师你是一个很公正的人。
真的真的很公正。
跟着你办活动，
我很踏实，很开心。
也许很多人在这个年纪，
都迷上了恋爱，电玩，电视机。
但是我在那些时刻，
跟着你学习到了别人学不到的，
体验了别人几年后才会体验到的。

分享。
是你教会我这两个字，
是你让我体会到它的重要。
你每一次的分享，
你每一次的诉说，
都很有价值。
谢谢你，老师。

我从一个懵懵懂懂的小女孩，
到现在的17岁少女。
音乐在我生命中，占据了一半，甚至超过的空间。
谢谢你，在我的乐谱上填上了色彩。

谢谢你，谢督钦老师。

Behind's Feel.

Looser?
" Knock, knock.."
"Yes, I am."



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Feeling like
Why I am always being so lazy?
Finding excuses for myself.
Looser-at-all behaviour.

Hhhhgggg.
"Come on!"
I always say this to others,
but what's for me myself?

Pick up my heart again,
check again,
And reformat.

Wish to become 17-year-old Officially,
Faster.

Bye, I'm in my 3-weeks-exam-period mood.
3 weeks.
Haiz.
AZA.

Blessed Be.

Am Busying.
Of Study.
Nah.
Felt Guilty when Spent 1 and half hours on watching TV.
But
Keep giving excuses to myself.
Hahaha.
Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
When Will be the last day of my Exam exam exam period?????
Infinity =(

Will not On line frequently.
So as the Blog.
See me at the end of May,
Or at the beginning of June.
Hah.

Merry meet
and
Merry Part
And
Merry Meet
again.

Blessed Be, Susu.

Slipped-out-from-study-time Feeling

Yea.
Like what I've put as the title of this article,
That's what I'am Enjoying now.
I can hear
The voices Of you all.
Haha.
But I choose to enjoy now.

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Felt better these few days.
The bond has been broken.
That's good, I like it, really =)
But You know,
I'm forcing already,
Whenever I wanna be myself,
Then I'll force myself,
To be the suppose-to-be.
Sometimes I feel like I'm talking double Dutch,
Just that to fulfill the to-be-a-suppose-to-be. Gah.
But nevermind,
Since that It leaves not much time,
I think I can stand for it.

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The first time,
I did the pick-up-my-luggage-and-go-straight-on action.
What an awesome thing, and a sad too.
I cant even believe myself,
For that.
You know, I wanna to do that at the very first,
But somehow,
I cant even think of it.
But see what had happened.
HAHAHA
Fine good,
But crap.
Holly crap.

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Exam is around the corner.
God.
I haven't read enough for what I suppose to finish.
I knew,
This coming exam is extremely crucial.
On the contrary I'm still hanging my thoughtssssss in the air.
A lot of thoughtsssssssssssssss
and dreamsssssssssss.
Shut up!
I should say this to myself frequently.
Hah.
What the hell is this?

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Heart

It was tired.
It has shrinked.
It was even
Bleeding.
It's beat slow down when it has to face you.
All the things are because of you.
It's You.

Can't figure Why.
I became like this whenever I face you.
I felt breathless.
In a bad way.
No freedom at all for me.
Sour faces.
Gah.
I am really TIRED.

They're Coming.

Yea,
They're coming.
All of them.
I felt scare, worry, panick
And,
Even Thoughtless.
What should I do?
Just wait for them to come?
And hit me fiercely, mercilessly?
Gah.
I don't want this.
I want to do what I wished, I planned, and I wanted.
Greedy, Am I?
No.
That's just What my life is going to.
Miracle,
Can't you just knock my door,
Surprisingly?

No-idea-about-what-to-say emotion.

Blank.
It's just all blank.
Even numb, doom and gloomy.

Why?
Should allllllll of these happened in a time?
No.
It's a challege.
Is it?
Yea, yes it's.
Just like what I heard.
It's definitely a test for us,
For us to overcome it.
By ourselves.

Gah.
I've more and more things to think to do and to depress.
But still got a few to happy, to feel sweet.
Thks for bringing the sweetness to me,
I
APPRECIATE
IT.

Although it could be just a misunderstanding,
a mistake
a wrong.
But
instead
I let myself to enjoy it
To enjoy the thing
Which seems like it is like this.

Thks.
For bringing the good to me.
Merry meet and merry part.
Blessed be.

=(

Bad Mood Today.
Don't you know?
The word you said would hurt someone?
Don't you use your brain to think before you talk?
Totally Frustrated.
Things have passed,
Please don't mind it again,
And,
Everyone Who involved in it have the same motive
Why jjust you wanna to say out loud?
I smile,
But I mind it.
And I knew.

From now on,
I have different look
On you.

*It feels good if you're by my side...

Ended.

First of all
I've finished my 《Dark Vision》，
Which is a very nice Novel.
I learned some new words,
And some old words have sink deep in my brain.
This is Goooooood =)
I LOVE reading day by day.
I enjoyed It very very much,
Really,
So please forgive me when I've been attracted by the story and forgot any of you,
Haha=D

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Secondly,
I've finished my education fairs' visits.
Gah.
Exhausted really.
Not my body,
Is my brain,
My heart.
What should I choose?
The pathway is very important.
I knew.
It's my future.

I've thought about Psychology
But it seems like,
Just
not much for me to do after graduated.
Because I can just become a counsellor.
If I didn't take medicine to become a doctor.
SO
Instead of just taking psychology,
I've considered to take medicine.
And become a doctor in the future.
Then
You all will see me Wearing White coat.
It's awesome.
Yea it is.
Russia,
is my another chioce.
Shall I decide it?

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Ended.
The story between you and I seemed like has been ended.
Now I will
Try to just pick up my luggage
And leave,
Without looking back at you.
I will try my best.

Coming

Coming
Many things are coming.
you are coming,
Ex is coming,
SPM too.
Gah,,,,,
tired=(

dECIDED,
BUT
disturbed.
Now
Changed.

La Paz

La Paz
Means
"peace"
In Spanish.
*Thks for my English Teacher's teaching, Miss Sheela.

You know,
I'm really enjoying my study,
These few days.
When hanging my thoughts here and there
When listening to the colourful stories from my teachers,
When working hard on my works,
When just being myself,
Without any hesitation.
No more responsibility for me to be responsible.

Just like what I had.
I met with a girl who I can
Just laugh crazily when I'm happy
Just cry or in bad mood when I'm sad.
Reasons are not important,
The whole process is not a non-stop question.
The most important
is just stay.
is just ignore.
is just having a little caring.
But not being
Like a friend-should-be.

You said
I left you aside.
I guess
Not.
It's just
What I really am.
I'm this and that person
The person you don't know
The person you unexpected.

Not that I should be the friend-should-be.
Not that I should always always always
Just concerning you.
I'm really tired
To be with you.
The way you show me
The way you want to win
The way you keep it when it's needed to be shared
The way you be the friend-should-be.
Gah,
let's just be ourselves
Shouldn't I?
You should.





*Sorry for my broken English, Thks for viewing this=)








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