Future...

好，就用华文。





这个星期
一直在反复的想，思考，斟酌，考虑。
到底，要不要去呢？要这么快就去吗？
地点：澳洲。

University of Tasmania.
不是最著名的，
但是该有的都有，
Quality也称不上“不好”。
Fees不高，不会涨价。
有奖学金。
我觉得不错，你呢？

妈妈说
如果要去澳洲读，
就直接过去就好。
不要这边一年，那边几年的，
总是会有差别（课程）。
她说直接去那里，适应那里的环境。
但是我会质疑自己，
一个人，真的可以吗？
我，会害怕吗？
未知数。
但是我可以很肯定地说：
我很想很想很想去那里读书。
离开家，离开这个这么温暖的家，
我可以坚持吗？

如果真的有过去，
就是2月多开课，
祝我好运吧！

RaRaRa :D

Yes,I got straight As for my SPM trial.
I know, many of you or many of them did get this result too, even better than mine.
But straight As with one A-, I appreciate this :)
I'll work harder and get straight As with no A- in my real SPM, bless me :)

Yea, I joined easynote again,means I worked together with them again in 绝对星光飙唱赛 at 19.09.10.
That's cool, That's great, That's fantastic.
LIVE BAND.
God, I wish to be standing there and pick up the mic and sing too :D
Do you realise how fantastic, how "shuang" it is?
In the middle of the stage, spot light on you, with a band behind you, and almost thousand? of audience.
God.
I want to be like that too !!!
But I'm a crew :(
Haha, but it's fun to be a crew too.
Learnt many things that are not in our books,
Experience.
Work together,
Have fun together,
Face problems together,
Chit-chatting together,
All together.
And make friends too :D
Thks again to my dearest teacher, Mr.Sea Took Kem.
I really really really appreciate it :)
Thks for asking me :" would you like to join us?"
Hah, I waited for this long long ago.
Hah, sooooo greedy.
Oops.
That's me:)

So, we're now "enjoying" at school.
Teachers are now giving us lotssss of exercises and then they will just sit in front,
guess what?
My Biology teacher put on his earphone and listening to the music? And facing his laptop after giving us a 50-questions-objective-paper.
Wow.
Interesting.

Going to the education fair on Wed, about universities in Australia,specifically.
And next Wed too, UK, USA, AUS and Our "peaceful" Malaysia :D
So my life is full of future hopes now.
Bless me again.
:)
PSYCHOLOGY AR PSYCHOLOGY,
DO YOU WELCOME ME? :S

Owh

Owh
Jealousy kills.

Owh
I'm not willing to believe.
But I'm forced to-

Owh
What I'd realised was
The people around you are not just what they seem like-

Owh
If You can't fulfil then just go away-

Owh
There's so many things-
So many things which WERE different
so many until I can't believe them.

Owh
I ain't the one you think of-

Owh
Please leave me alone.
I don't want you, anymore.
Let go of me-
And go straight on.
Since I'd realised who you are,
There's nothing we can discuss more-
So be brave,
just go
And go and go.

thanks and no thanks

Thanks
To a person
who wrote a discription about me


Charming and always
Humble, is an
Overcomer and a
Winner,
Sweet,
Honest, and
Understanding,
Loving,
Intelligent,
Never gives up, and definitely
Gorgeous.....

( Look at the initials :) )

Haha, Thks yea.
For the person who wrote this,
I appreciate it very much :)


And "No thanks"
To this Flu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gahhhhhhhh
Owh,
It's really sucks!
(sry for saying bad word)
But I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cannot sing loudly though during hols now :(



It really disappointed me.
At least a little bit,
The moment I open it,
The moment I look at it.
Felt disappointed of myself.
Haiz.

是你，又是你！！！！！！

又是你！
又是你又是你！！！！！
我满怀期待的等待明天的到来
我兴高采烈的盘算着明天的一切
因为你，
所有的梦都碎了。


我们从小一起长大
爸妈的爱我们拿得都均匀
也许我以前曾经有过爸妈偏心的念头
但是我现在不曾有过那种想法
因为我知道
爸爸妈妈对我都付出了比这个世界更大更大的爱
更多更多的关怀
更棒更棒的对待
但是呢?
为什么？
为什么你一次次的要破坏？
为什么？
你可以告诉我吗？
你心里不平衡吗？
你为什么那么不懂事？
你都18岁了，
还不会想吗？
还没有成熟一点吗？一点就好！
我只希望你成熟一点，一点点就好！！！！！

明天是我的生日，
你是妒忌吗？
妒忌我有一个有50多个朋友的派对，
妒忌我可以办这个派对吗？
是吗？
是的话就讲出来！
男人，做事光明磊落！
不喜欢就说不喜欢！
不用兜圈子！
妈妈每天被你念，夹在中间她很辛苦你知道吗？
你整天只懂得用你那个嘴巴来批评别人
你有想过你自己吗？
你有吗？！！！！
从小爸爸妈妈就很疼我们两个，
你为什么要整天把“偏心”放在嘴边？！
是不是就搬出来讲，
你不觉得累吗？
我听了都累！
耳朵累，头脑累，心，也很累。
你有顾忌到我们的感受吗？
有吗？
你自己说有吗？？？
喜欢就乱花钱！
花了就说你应该的！
我花钱你就看不爽！
你脑袋有问题啊？
跟你相处真的很累！
很累很累很累！！！！！
很烦啊！


你高兴了！
明天的生日对我来说又算什么了？
爸妈现在没说话，
整个家碎完了，
你高兴了对吗？
这就是你想要的吗？
眼睛已经没有泪了，
都干了
都很累了
我现在又算什么？
就这样吧，对吗？
明天就做一场戏，
就一场完美的戏，
戏做完了就回到现实，
是这样吗？
你希望的就是这样吗？
那很好，
正如你所愿。

想离开这个家，
自己去别的洲，甚至是别的国家，
就是不想看到你！
就是不想再跟你生活！
我们的家
原本是可以很美好，很美好的。
就是因为有你这个不成熟的人！
才会变成这样！
我常常在想
爸爸妈妈
是因为相爱
才在一起的。
但是多年后的今天，
他们的爱
好像少了好多好多。
妈妈很累，很辛苦。
爸爸也是。
离婚又不好，我不希望会是这样的结局。
但是又能怎么样呢？
为什么？
我会要面对这一切的一切？
命运，是吗？
是的。
这就是我的命。
我不舍得离开这个家，
没有什么原因，
就是因为我离不开爸爸妈妈，
但是我不会对你不舍，
一点都不会！
因为你是一个动不动就说死的人！
我看不起你！


犹豫了很久，
这样写出来，
到底对不对？
但是请原谅我，
我忍了很久了。
我如果不宣泄，
我怕我会崩溃。
我怕我会疯掉。
我要勇敢的面对。
这是我应该做的。
哥哥，醒一醒，好吗？

Yea.It's this feeling.Yes.

Glad.
All of us have finished our examinations.
And the most important part is: We have no any homework AT ALL!
God, Is it because our school teacher forgot to give?
Hah oopss, teachers you all did a big big big mistake!
XD

Another thing,
I can go back and join them (easynote friends),
organise competition,
no, it's like a concert C:
Yes, I like this, being together with those crazy happy people.
Fun.
And learn lotsss of things.
Thanks teacher, Sea Gemuk :D
I appreciate it.


Damn happy now.
No. Not happy.
It's a feeling,
Between happy and normal.
Just between the range.
It's this feeling I like the most.
The feeling I crazy for.
Yes,
It's this feeling.
Listening to the background music of my Blog,
And enjoying this feeling.
This is the BEST.
Do you know about this feeling?
Do you realise it?
Do you notice it?
Hah. Silly.


Yes.
I went to my favourite place just now.
Rose Garden.
It's my favourite.
It always will be.
It is a place full of memories,
A place which is one of the turning points of my life,
A place which mixed with happiness and sadness.
Yessssssss.
I like it.


Sometimes
When my mind is flickering
When my mind is hanging in the air
Like the air swimming
I think, I think carefully.
Yes,This is what life is.
I enjoy my life.
Very much.