原则

我很怪
总是帮我的生活套上一圈圈的原则
总是被这一圈圈的规则套住
逃不了
也跑不掉
总是这么规矩性的生活

那这其中一个
就是靠自己。

我曾跟我自己说
做什么都靠自己
钱，学业，日常，快了，难过。
除了永远对你敞开胸怀的家人，
我谁都不能靠。
不想欠
也不想还怎样都觉得不够的偿还
所以我选择能自己就自己。

最近这个圈圈有了裂痕
我说
是好
还是应该用胶纸粘上？
不习惯。


还是想说，谢谢。
大脑计算不出结论的，
我就用心来算吧。


blessed be, susu chow! (:

Annyeong!

Hello people,
sorry for not updating myself for such a long time!
Been busy for assignment and presentation and now they are all done!
This week is my last week of school before Christmas vacation.
Yesh, a super long one: 21st Dec - 9th Feb.
Well, there's still an exam to face on the 28th of Jan so it doesn't seem like this will be a all-free holilday.

Yea, my first Christmas here in the UK.
But ain't going anywhere, no worries I ain't lonely (:
Will live my life to the fullest people, so live yours as well.

Still,
I planned not to go back in June but might be going back in early Sep or end of Aug.
Will try my best to look for job during summer so that I can earn money for my self-exploring trips.
My dreams, my life (:

Till here then!
Will come again!


Blessed be,
Susu Chow.

心，开了。

当主题围绕在思绪和情绪时，华文还是最贴近心底的那个语言。

今晚和一个我一开始对她有负面思想的人聊开了，
才发现我误会的事情这么多。
我当面道歉，
没有一丝的尴尬，
没有一丝的不满，
我诚心的坦露一切，
我诚心的，也重新的，交了这个朋友。
我说，
没错。
我也会有错的时候，
但我清楚自己错在哪里，
我清楚的意识到道歉是必须的。
我成长了，
就在那一刻。

晚安，世界。
晚安，你。
晚安，我。


Blessed be, susu chow!

Daily routine.

Hello peeps!

Just feel like updating myself ngeheh!
Ordered a pair of knee-high boots for myself for the winter but ngehhhhhh, it has not been posted for 2 weeks long!
WHERE IS MY BOOTS, Brandalley.com??????

Nahhh, gonna describe my daily routine here in the UK ----- study.
Yep, I study everyday, for every subject right after the lecture.
I started my lab report super early hope it will end up with good grade, pleaseeeeeee.
It was said that getting first class result, which is 70 and above, is almost impossible here for Psychology.
I know it would be super duper hard, I know I shouldn't even expect and aim for it but yeaaa,
I still wanna make it as my final goal.
I.Want.Fisrt.Class.Result.
but I will never force myself to, no worries!

Hmm...there are a few lectures which I've done revision yet couldn't understand at all.
Let's hope that I would get to understand them better after borrowing books from the library, chewed everything and regurgitate everything.
Dear God, please notice my hard work.

wake up > go to school > Back from sch > revision > cooking > revision > lab report > one hour entertainment.

I told you I'm gonna report my routine.
I did.
Ngeheh!
Srry I have no time for partying and yesh, I hate sweating profusely and having others' body stick to mine. I prefer early breakfast in a patisserie.
I live my life in my own way.
All the best people!


Blessed be, susu chow!

人小鬼大

Yesh,

I am ambitious.

That's why I always plan.

Visit Paris and Venice next year is the first.

Try out extreme sports activities in Switzerland, sky diving and bungee jumping especially, are the seconds.

Take part in 华人星光大道, a well-known singing competition held in Taiwan, before 26 is the third.

Visit Korea again with my sis, Ms. Jiewen Wu before 28 is the fourth.

Group travel trip with all the silly girls, don't pretend to be smart here, before 30 is the fifth.

 Visit Hui Xin in the states is the sixth.

Krabi, the seventh.

Hawaii / Maldives, the eighth. 

.......

So, I planned to use my self-earned money to fulfil all the above.

First, I have to look for a job and work during the summer in 2014 for Paris and London trip.

Then, I have to work during the next summer to save up money for the singing competition.

Then I have to continue my master programme.

Then I have to find myself a work to earn super duper lots of money to fulfil 2nd - 8th.

Yeppp, I have grandiose ideas.

Ngeheh.

But I will try my best, as always (:

Goodnight! It has been such a long time that I never updated my conditions here. Sorrey, will keep updating ;)




Blessed be, Susu chow!

Enjoy cooking & singing here!

Hello peeps!
Yeppp I enjoy the cooking life here.
Am so satisfied finding out that I am able to cook a dinner for myself, and even for others.
I know it's hard but yea, it is a process.
And who knows I would still be able to cook after my classes have started morrow?
Ngehhhh.
Hope I can do it still, by having a good time-managing skill.
Aza!
Wokay, here comes the first wave of food instas!

Hope you guys like it!

And yea, I do sing and I have a soundcloud account which I do covers of songs and upload them there!
https://soundcloud.com/susu-chow
Do follow me if you're interested in music too! (;


Blessed be, susu chow! :D

Weeeeezzzz! UK TRIP PHOTOS :D

Okay so this was the awesome trip I had with my family while they sent me off :)
Enjoy reading and viewing! :D
Cheers! xoxo



Blessed be, Susu chow!

Bonjour! (:

Hello guys & girls!
Yeppp!
I'm now studying in the University of Sheffield, United Kingdom.
Studying overseas is one of the dreams that I have.
Thanks to my family who make it real and thanks to myself, for going through all these with a positive mind.
I'm all good here, no worries!
There's no food, culture and language barriers, yet.
But nahhhh I just hope that it will remain.
Sheffield is the 4th biggest city and the greenest city in the UK.
It is big but yeah, people here help each other even when the others are not asking for it.
They would just approach you and ask whether there's anything that he or she can help.
How nice are they!
It's just like a village.
And so I like the environment here, except the weather.
It is really forever-unstable.
As told by the seniors.

Wokay!
It is 10:25pm now.
Morrow will be a super buy day.
Modules sign-up, registration, University Health Service sign-up & payment!
A lot.
I know.
Till here then!
Bye darlings!


*I seriously can't wait for the upcoming dramas! Especially The Heirs by Lee Min Ho & Park Sin Hye!



Blessed be, susu chow!

Last night here in 2013, JB.

Decided to use Mandarin tonight, sorry for those who doesn't understand :/

话说
每日每夜期待着的
现在要实现了。
我说
这就是其中一个所谓的moment.
这就是当你
可以不经意想起时
嘴角会上扬
眼眶会湿
但 心是温暖的。

我说
我一定会想念这里的一切
拼命的想念
疯狂的怀念
但同时
我也一定会拼命的 疯狂的爱上那里的一切
我也会在那极度陌生的另一边
种下我温暖的情分
留下我永不匿迹的脚印
所以
我准备好了。

明天中午就会离开新山
后天早上就会冲上云霄
展望世界。

我说朋友，
你们准备好了吗？


Blessed be, Susu.

No.

I really hope that everything will be fine morrow.
I really hope that there will be a 'it's alright'.
So this is the test given by God before I leave?
Kay, I'm gonna just face it, accept it and pray for it.
Be positive, girl.


Blessed be.

Yesh, I am twentieth.

Weeeeeeeee.
Thanks for all the wishes! xoxo
And this year,
I take it as a barrier, or a trial, to start life anew.
And I believe I passed it (:

"All the best in your new life, newborn."


Blessed be.

Time Travel

Yeppp,
This is a post about a drama, again.
Its name is 《九回时间旅行》,《Nine Times Time Travel》.
Again, an awesome one.
But this time,
the focus isn't on the romantic love between the hero and the heroin.
But the true meaning behind the whole story.
A guy who's given nine chances to go back to 20 years ago.
He goes back at the first time to save his family, his brother who's dead.
And yesh, there'll be sacrifice,
which he realizes step by step and day by day until he regrets.
And in the end, he tries to go back just to put everything back to the original plan.
Get it?
There's no short cut in our lives.
You would just have to re-do whatever that you've done through those short cuts.
And yesh,
You might fail, and everything will just change.
Without you noticing it.
And when you notice,
that's it.
Ta-da.
It has become a reality,
which you would never have the chance to face it all again, to correct it and to form new beliefs.
So, guys,
Be aware of everything that you're doing right now.
At this stage of your life.
You may be given chance when you're granted.
You might not, when you think you are.


Lesson learnt.
This drama is so inspiring.
It tells me how important every decision is,
how not to do anything that you're not supposed to when it seems like you are.
Never be tempted by things that do not belong to you.
And never ever go after it.
There are complications, even punishments.



Hah.
But the way the hero and heroin love each other is so awesome too.
So cool.
So "inspiring" too.
Ngeheh.
Ain't serious here,
is being funny ngehhh.


wokay,
so left about...hmm let me do the calculation...
28 days to the day I'm flying over UK.
Started to feel something.
That something that I never thought I would feel this early.
Perhaps it's because I'm so happy now.
I mean the life I'm having right now.
Yeeeeep,
I am.
Bought half of my hierarchy of needs' items.
Thanks parents,
for loving me so much.
And thanks bro,
for being caring with your I-am-not-being-caring-to-you method.
Almost one month to my new life there,
Have to meet so many people before I leave.
I said before,
I'm a person who cares about the past, especially people.
对，我念旧。

Blessed be, Susu Chow!

The rear view.

And I think,
people always use the front view but neglected the rear view.
It applies.
On human beings.
Oh yeah, that's the way.

And I think,
my rear view is hidden somewhere,
where you'll never find.

Well, at least I know what I am doing and sacrificing.

"Being a hero is a subset of being alone" - Susu.


Blessed be, Suuuu.

Jazzzzzzzzz & Bluessssssss

A song that is attractive enough to seduce me.

Dreammmmmmmmm

Started to watch a new drama, hah, you might be annoyed of my forever-drama-behaviour but, yea. This is me.
How people react to each others' actions, behaviours, words and even thoughts.
How people face and solve his or her problems before handling with others'.
How people comment, express and decide.
Yesh, this is what I'm interested in.
And another big YES, it includes romantic love.
I mean, why not?


Okay, back to today's topic.
I've started to watch Triumph To The Skies II,
Decided to watch it because of one of the objectives of this drama - Dream.
The way people work hard to achieve it.
The way people hold themselves for it.
I wonder why majority of us would have gigantic, even grandiose dream(s).
Ngehhhhhh, I don't think I have one.
Being a psychologist is a mission I give to myself, due to interest of course.
But a true dream?
Nayyy.


Countdown for 3 days to the end of my first work life.
It is not a very good one, not bad though.
Got to learn a lot from this job, from colleagues, from boss, and of course from my dearest customer.
Positive, I get to know a lot of aunties and uncles who are excellent in chatting and joking and not to forget - teaching.
Thanks, dears.


Countdown for....(I seriously didn't countdown for the day to leave M'sia) because for now, I don't really care.
Almost one and a half month?
Will do the counting soon.
Trust me.


Nahhhhhhhh,
Have to work morrow soooooooooo
Tata!




Aza fighting people!
"God would never put you life to an end".
Keep in mind!



Blessed be, Susu!

Friends.

Annyeong!

A comfortable and nice outing with two steadies.
Enjoyed it even it is two girls and a boy.
This is what I am actually looking for.
Friendship with simple reasons but deep relationships among us.
Just two or three or four of us without any staggered thoughts.








But hmmmmm...
I realized that I am quite imaginative, being too kind to friends whom I believe they will treat me the same way.
Hah.
It is silly, indeed.
Wake up Su!
You know who are kind to you.
Stop demanding for perfection.
Cherish who you have by your side now.
Once bitten, twice shy.
Nevermind, it would always be a good lesson for yourself.
Never stop learning, uh-huh?


我说，其实我都懂的。
我都能感觉得到，真的 :)







Blessed be, susu chow!

Hey there

When the sky is covered with clouds,
Can you not see the clouds but the sun?

Apparently no.

When the tears are dropping,
Can you not see the tears but the smile behind?

Apparently hard to.

And yes,
This is human being.
And so do you.

So when Dear tomorrow comes,
I will say hi to her,
with both my tears and smiles,
I will say hi to her,
and walk hand-in-hand with her,
Without a doubt.

I will go on, and on, and on, and on.
Until I reach the bridge,
That allows me to take off the mask,
That allows me to swallow a breath.




Blessed be,

Susu chow.

我上来了

今天决定用母语,原因...知道的。


最近觉得自己好像对于一些事情总是太执著,
结果不如预期,
就更容易失望。
我说我啊,是时候再改变一下了。

真的是这样的吗?
我觉得自己常focus在某事物上,
结果忽略了其他的点点点,
我,真的不是完美的。
完美,真的好难,根本不可能。

想唱歌,想在我与知识一起去流浪前,
跟性情,跟热忱,跟感性一起回温。
给我这个时间,让我,做做自己,好吗?



就叫ZOE ok? Ngeheh.



Blessed be susu.

Realization

Met my LAODA today,
and I would say she's still the same.
People do change.
But majority of them don't or are unable to change who they really are.
And personality is one of the unchangeable.
Nice to meet you, again!

Realize that when I talk to someone, when we chat, I get to do reflection.
Yesh, of myself.
This is definitely a good sign.
I enjoy it.

We do need gut feelings when we're in love or when we break up.



Blessed be susu!

What kind of feeling is this?

Hello peeps.
Yesh, I'm nervous for the results.
Yet, not that nervous.
31st of May can you please be a good day?
Nahhh, I applied for Malaysian Merit Award, worth 7000 pounds.
And there will be only two scholarships provided, over maybe 200+ applicants?

God bless me please.

It's already the end of May.
And June is knocking the door.
And July stands behind June and he is peeking.
Well oh well,
My lovely August calls and she says that she is coming.
The cool September remains calm and continues his journey.
So what should the girl do?
Nothing but being what it means to be, the true self.




Blessed be, susu chow!
(Should I have a nickname too? Ahhhhhh. Suggestion.)

When it becomes a routine.

Had finished a nice drama recently, many dramas actually but this one is worth to be mentioned here.
Heh.
A gentleman's dignity.
Nahhh.
I know it is quite an old one.
But mmhmm.
I just finished it.
And found that it is quite nice.
My style hehe.


And about my job,
I would say yes,
I realized how important choosing the right job is.
I admit that I'm not enjoying my job, anymore.
Find it boring actually.
What can I do?
I made the choice at first.
And so I have the responsibility to continue.
I mentioned about early resignation to my boss actually.
But she said since I agreed to the condition of working until 31st of July,
and singed the contract somemore (although there's no any monetary issues involved),
I have to obey it.
Yep,
that's what I can't go against.
Everytime.
Rules.
and,
regulations.
Lesson learnt.



Blessed be, susu chow!

懂我的这个家

I've never thought of applying psychology, as in applying the skills, on family members.
Until today.
Nope, maybe I've applied before but I never realize.
I've never thought of this.
I've never come so far.
I've never thought of settling these.
And,
I've never thought of becoming such a person.

Blessed be, susu chow!

还是会，害怕。

响应上一个发表
我说
今天这个的主题
绕不到哪儿去。
话说我们家一共有四人
但是真理，规则...

今晚
左心房不好受
眼眶多了很多的H2O
参杂了许多的Na,
我想这是我眼睛最不好受的一晚吧，
自我从KL回来。
但是脑子使命的往眼睛发射signals,
receptor接着了，但有些却来不及response而跟着最初的signal,把neurons所发送的讯息完整的做出reflex.


我说，
今晚，可以忘掉吗？
因为那些话，太刺耳了。

理

在这个家里的规矩，规则，真理
都只对三个人有效。
但是话说
我们家一共有的是4个人。

散文，诗。

疑似下起雪的天气
那女人 深深地吸了一口气

疑似下起雪的天气
那女人 轻轻地整理了思绪

思绪里的心 反复又反复
心里的思绪 反复再反复
一条路成了两段路
那女人 自问自答的想起

细细丝丝的思绪
丝丝细细的呼吸
伴着密密绸绸的神情
混着绸绸密密的情绪

在疑似下着雪的天气
那女人 想起 忆起 唤起
手里疑似方形玩具里的另一份思绪
另一份情绪
另一份神情
另一道呼吸

一条路成了三段路
那女人 指向了捷径
一条路只是一段路
那女人的左胸口回应

疑似下起雪的天气
那女人 深深地叹了一口气
镜里的嘴角 微微地扬起
玩具里的另一个自己
不缓不急
不欢不郁

一团团串起阳光的空气里
那女人 双足与捷径外的一段相印
途中唤起四方玩具的自己
娓娓的道出几句

“呼吸里的思绪
思绪里的呼吸”

在那之前
是一行行的回文段句。

Needs.

I need putty filler.
It seems like I need it.
It feels like.




Blessed be, susu!

《学校2013》；《School 2013》

Just finished.
Nice one.
No love story but school.
Pure relationships between friends.
Ching-gu.




Blessed be,
Susu chow.

Missing You

And yesh,
Get to finish this awesome and meaningful drama
《Missing You》
One of the bests.

Like the little tiny interactions between the male and female leading actors.
The umbrella,
The magical hand,
The wind,
The counting of footsteps,
The repetition,
The rain,
The first snow,
The song of memorial,
The tears,
The street lamp,
The graffiti.

Thanks for teaching me so much,this lovely drama.


Picture peeps!

This nine-month-of-self-motivating-and-self-improving-and-self-exploring period

Yesh,
it's 9 months,
not just a few.
It's the beginning of the first sem of my second year of Psychology.
But I didn't go to uni.
Yesh, I escaped from that place.
I escaped from that area.
I escaped from that environment.


I will fly,
to another end of the world,
in nine months time.
Yesh, this is the biggest risk that I'll take, so far.

Started working as a staff at MY Pharmacy last Monday.
It was very very fun.
I'm so lucky that it's the lady boss who asked me to join them and I get to know so many types of medicine and medical tools.
Weeeeee.
This is still the area that I love the most.
Yesh.
No regret peeps.


Blessed be, susu chow!

还没走出2012的心，在怀念。

母语还是我最喜欢的语言，错不了。


明天会是第一个工作面试，
应征银行信用卡推销员的工作，
准备的没什么，带着我的脑和心去，就好了。
加油！

12月31日我的报告出来了，
检验结果：无幽门螺旋菌！
呵呵，我，也算在某个方面自由了。
但是我会持续之前的持续，
照顾和提防。

重看了屋搭房，
还是一样的感人。
我喜欢他漫不经心的想事情时一把抓住她不停往他手心推的手，
我喜欢他苦索着谜底与答案的同时却也在心中留着一道只有她手中握着钥匙的房锁。

想你，
真的不简单，
又再一次揪着我的情绪。


2013，
我已试着努力迎向你，
渐渐的，
我会奔向你。


Blessed be,
Susu chow!