Meaning.less

I rejected all these.
Please don't think that I don't care
Don't think that it's meaningless to me.
I did care.
Yes, I did.

Should I just take SAM first?
I don't know.
I hate this type of me.
Choosy,
Can't decide things,
So not....yea.I don't know how to describe it.
It's all about myself,
Why I just can't be brave,
even a little?

I should make a decision.
Yea,
I will.
I should, I should, I should.
Stop all these.